We were asked to determine which level we are in the matrix and share it to our group.
So where am I in the matrix?
Let me give you a brief background of myself.
I am a 25 year old, female who recently left as job as an HR Advisor in a multi-national company to focus on their family business while studying MBA. I am not in a relationship, I love dogs and I have friends whom I occasionally go out with when I think I am financially capable to do so. I collect Loki merchandise and those little lego toys(I only collect villains).
Career-wise, I feel like I am in a stand still. Granted, my father is happy that one of his young-lings finally took interest in the business he built and I am am happy that he is happy. However, I find working in our business a tad boring. Maybe I was accustomed to the fast paced, professional companies that I worked with before. Pay is not going well too, nowadays. I am given allowance, and I feel that by savings are slowly thinning up. I could go find another job, but after one of our Admin goes back from maternity leave(June, she hasn't left yet). I plan to work in HR again as soon as I get my father's consent. So if I were to choose which stage I am in for Work, I would be in Job:getting. I may sound like an ungrateful spoiled kid, but I am not ready to work in our business.. yet. Maybe after I have experienced being at the top when I've climbed up the corporate ladder.
When I am not at work, I study. I am very thankful that I am taking up MBA right now. Aside from it being an escape from the monotony at work, it has become my beacon of hope(haha). I meet interesting people, I learn a lot and I am hopeful of what this course can offer me. Going out with friends may be challenging to do now, however, I know that it will be better towards the end of the year. I am beginning to find comfort with myself and with my family. I am currently in Utility for Leisure.
Combined, I feel like I am still in the Gratification stage. I have 'work' and have fun but there is a gutting feeling that I am just coasting in life. I am living life on auto-pilot. I haven't done any major life changing decisions lately and I missed doing that.
After ranting out about life, I often feel fueled. It is a good feeling.
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